Since march I've been worrying about Covid and me parents catching it.

In July me dad was diagnosed with skin cancer, but luckily it wasn't the most aggressive type and he soon batted that off just needing a small op.

He is the fittest mid-seventy yr old you could ever know, always active and fit as fuck, but two weeks ago he had a heart attack out of the blue.

Went to hospital and spent the next 10 days getting all kinds of tests.  Like a camera inserted into a vein in his leg and sent up to his heart to see the damage.  Shit like that. And every day or two they found something new out that made his condition worse than previously thought.  He was always positive as fuck though, telling me not to worry and he'll be ok.

Two days ago he had heart surgery.  Proper major stuff - taking the heart out and repairing the valve and there was a good chance he wouldnt make it.

6 hour job but it went according to plan and he then went into ITU (as planned) and was stable.  Still not out of the woods yet by a long way but obviously a fucking relief he got through the worst bit.

Today I got a text off him. "I'm not going to make it son. Tell your mam I love her and look after her for me"

Skipping over things a bit here cos this story is dragging on a bit - but after the worst few minutes of my life I find out nothing has happened and he is still stable and on the right course (which the nurses have been telling him)

Then I spoke to him on the phone and its like he's had some kind of breakdown. He's just 100% convinced he isn't going to make it and will die soon even though the nurses are telling him he's doing fine.  Begging me to tell my mam this is the end and he loves her more than anything (we've been protecting her - she has no idea how serious things have been)

He's the strongest man I know, head of the family and always knows how to sort everyonesw problems out. but I just cant get through to him. He was crying and almost hysterical  Breaking my heart hearing him like this (on top of how poorly he still is).  And being in such distress wont be doing his recovery any good I suspect



Well, thats where we're up to right now - just waiting to see what tomorrow brings.

Been told its common for a patient to feel negative, anxious etc after what he's been through but this seems like somthing else to me



My head is absoultely done in and I've had a few beers so probs not done a good job of writing that.  Also missed a few things out that would further explain why Im so upset and almost at the end of my tether

There are a few wise old sages on here so any informative/positive/encouraging comments would be welcomed

Nobody has posted on here for weeks just wondering if anyone else is still on here?

I have been to watch my local team play 3 games now. They are in Ryman’s Premier League. There were over 300 there last night. Seems strange that I can go to these games but fans are not allowed in much larger stadiums. The gate money from last night and the money from season tickets the bar and the food bar all helps at this level. Makes me wonder whether small crowds could be allowed into Div 2 games, just a thought as many of those clubs must be struggling big time.

Anyone else think we are going to get our arses handed to us on a plate?

Reckon we'll win 1 - 0

That game left more questions than answers. We are still shite.

Got to love Miggy though. If de Bruyne played that through ball for the goal, folk would be thrapping themselves senseless. Have a feeling Bacon heed doesn't see him as a starter which is madness. He should be one of the first names on the teamsheet imho.

So I’ve found itshyte...graft stopped,made redundant....but had the first grant and done stuff on the house. Not had a wank for months with the wife being in view for months.
Still don’t know anyone that has died from it...I do however know lads that do...RIP to them.....numbers will go up as the cold flu season is coming...........sick of it being forced into me head now......2020 can fuck off,when it gets there can fuck off some more!

See us with a win,I’ll be half cut by the time this kicks off mind so just send a text with any goals....
Predict a Toon win as they have a worse owner than us...apparently ?

Newcastle have signed Ryan Fraser on a free transfer and he is delighted with the deal.

He said on ICFOOTBALLNEWS: “I’m absolutely buzzing for it – I came down to see the place the other day and it was all just good things; the manager, the place, the fans, the messages I’ve been getting.


“It was just a no-brainer, really, to play in such a big stadium with such passionate fans, and being back up in the north again is big as well.

“So I’m really looking forward to it and I just cant wait to show everyone what I can do, help the team and help us get back to where we belong.”

I am delighted that he has signed for the club, but will he be the Fraser from two years ago or the one that flopped last season?

Hey guys..

Do you think that Ryan Fraser will be a good signing for the club now that terms have been agreed and he is closing in on a move to the Toon?

Read story here - Newcastle on verge of signing winger Fraser

He is proven in the Premier League and definitely a bargain for us i believe.

We will not be able to sign many players this summer, but i am a huge fan, will he be a success?

https://www.bbc.co.uk/news/uk-england-norfolk-53916952

This is not far from me. I've heard it was really removed to protect it from the massive turbot that's been seen in there.